I am a Graphic Design Student

Today I feel discouraged. I am in college and this semester seems to just be dragging me down. Really, I don’t feel like I have gotten much out of it.

I’m sad because I don’t feel like I spend much time thinking about projects, but I think I am a person that needs to be in the right atmosphere for creativity. The sphere I am in this semester I don’t think allows for that.

I think the times that I am most productive are during the day, meaning 9-5. What seems to be hard for me is that all my classes are in between those times and then when 5 o’clock rolls around, I am less motivated to do work.

The problem with classes is that there is so much wasted time. Classes are so constricting. You have all this work time but what am I supposed to get done in the four walls of that cement building.

What I really wish was that we could be briefed on what the instructor wants to tell us, and then when it is break time to work, I want to be able to do what ever I need to do to be as productive as I can. This for me usually means working on the next thing I have to get done, over doing what I am supposed to do for that class. I just wish I was free to do that without the fear of being scolded to do work for that class, or have an absence.

We all work in different ways, and the way the school would have me work is just not how I work best.

This leads me to being very sad about school all the time. It makes me feel like I am an awful person that can’t prioritize or get anything done.

But I don’t think that is true. I can be very productive, and I am a good worker. This atmosphere is just not the one for me. I can’t wait to be in the work place, where my work is during the day and in one place.

I am hoping next semester I will find some inspiration leading out of my last semester of school. The schedule I have set up is like no other that I have had before. There is time that is allotted through out my everyday to work on school stuff because I have me classes scheduled in the morning and the evening. Thus leaving all the time in between to get work done.

Wish me luck.

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London Thoughts

Currently at work. Listening to Alicia Keys.

I have completed my projects for the summer by probably 85-90%. There's only 20 minutes left, and I am as they say here blocked. As in I don't know how much more I can do until I have some feedback, critique, and editing on my digital piece.

So for the last 20 minutes I guess I am just reflecting on my experience here in London. I can't believe I am further than the half way point, I can't believe that I have only two more weekends over here and I'm not even spending them in London because we're going to Germany and then Spain after that. I can't see going out any other way.

This trip has been a roller coaster. Like literally at one point we were riding roller coasters. I did not think it was possible to do so much in one summer. It is the most crazy fast paced life ever. It's a bit exhausting but it is so amazing. When I get back it's going to just be a magical dream in my memory. ~ You think that it was an adjustment coming here? No. I think the real adjustment is going to be going back.

There are so many crazy things this life has to offer, and this trip has kind of taught me that you just got to go for them. It may be scary to take that leap of faith, but it is so necessary for you to grow. And I don't think anyone wants to get to the end of their life and feel like they just allowed themselves to get stuck in a rut.

You have one life to live. Write your own story. And few more cliches, but for real.

peace
from london

What makes you feel better when you’re down?

Hi everyone,

I’m not having the greatest time and I was just wondering what makes you all feel better when you are down.

I thought I would share a few things that make me feel better too.

  • Watching Shrek
  • Having a picture of Ed Sheeran on the wall
  • Talking to my dad

Let me know what you guys think.

Status

I said most likely about the fake money post. But it is not going to happen.

Instead, I’m just going to say that the first weekend I was here, I was a victim and I say victim of wait for it… A FAKE POUND.

That is all.

First Timer on the Tube

Ok guys, today was the first day of my internship, and with that the first time I traveled the Tube alone. (Also take note that I only took it one time before with the girls.) So here I am trying to follow the map on my phone to the tube station, and mind you it is very windy, very rainy, and in consequence very cold. But I find the station and it surprises me a bit on how crowded it was or should I say how uncrowded it was. I really assumed it would be more packed.

Time to get on and I find a seat, no problem, all is well. But that was only the short trip, then I had to switch platforms to head to the train/tube (whatever) to Wimbledon. On that trip it got a bit crowded at the first few stops, but as we got further from Central London, the crowds thinned out quite a bit.

So all in all, the tube IS NOT as bad as it seems at all.

Therefore ladies and gents have no fear, and ride away to your hearts content.
peace and sunny days from london 🙂

Memories in Music

Lately I have been going through my bedroom to clean stuff up and get rid of things that are just unnecessary. So during this process I have found old trinkets and mementos and photos. Looking at the photos it just amazes me that I can look at a picture from when I was 4 years old and I am amazed that I can recall the actions that accompany the photo.

Okay so anyway, that just brings me up to today. I was outside just ya know playing some Candy Crush and listening to music. And I just come across a song that just kind of makes me laugh. For me, memories that go along with songs are usually related to relationships I have had.

I just think it’s interesting that for every relationship that I am apart of I usually get introduced to an entirely different body of music. And since it is music that I don’t actively seek out, I usually only listen to what they show me and add it to my playlist. Therefore being that some of these relationships go some years back; here I am probably with these specific songs that remind me of them and they are probably so far past knowing that insignificant song anymore.

So there you go. Memories and music. My take.

This is what life’s about

Today was a day full of “what really matters” themes. If you read my previous post, there was just a lot of frustration the morning brought. By the end of the day I was just hungry and exhausted. (And let me tell ya I didn’t choose the best dinner later either).

There are just a few days left and then school is just going to be over, so today when I got home I really just wanted to relax. The entire day was making me feel as though I needed meditation in my life, but my mind is just going a billion miles a minute so meditation is not quite very efficient.

Okay so HERE is where the magic starts.

To relax I go for a walk because let me tell you that after day after day of just being inside buildings all the time, a walk is much needed. My mind starts to go blank and I just take in all the beautiful nature and trees and pretty homes. There air smells fresh; I can smell the wood and the grass and the florals and leaves. My senses are beyond thrilled. And then I get downtown and I get to the river and it’s just breath taking. It’s calming, and peaceful, and beautiful. I just take it in as the sun sets on the water.

I go to walk home and as I’m coming back from downtown, there is this little Mamma duck followed by her 13 babies just walking in the road. A woman gets out of her car, and I watch her usher the ducks to the corner. So I’m thinking ok the ducks are safe now, but they

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These are the ducks on the way to the river.

have a bunch of streets to cross to get back to the river! So here I am just wondering if I should follow the ducks or not, but the thought of how busy one the roads were goes through my mind. So yes, I followed them. I kept my distance, but was sure to be close enough so that people could see me walking and would steer clear.

Aw it took maybe a half an hour for them to get to the river with all the baby ducks just waddling their little tails. I even tried to help a little guy get up on the side walk by putting my shoe in front of him for a stepping stool. But the little bugger had it. Aw it was so special, and watching the Mamma duck wait for the babies when they couldn’t get on the side walk was just heart-warming. Ugh it was wonderful.

College is Not Everything

Let me start off by saying that college is not going to be my peak in life, and that’s okay. We live in a society where there is so much emphasis on furthering your education. It is this thing that is super important and society says you MUST do this or you are going to be a bum for life. And yet they charge you an arm and a leg for it.

So here we are broke as hell working towards a degree we might not even know that is the direction in life we need to be going. This is apparently the most important thing. These four years, the college makes you feel like this is going to determine your life. That if you don’t make this your job right now, and care about every single thing you do, that you are going to go nowhere in life.

Also, in case you were wondering, I am an Art Major. And if you were in this major you would know that “it’s not about the grade” which is why we literally don’t know what our grades are until the end of the semester.

I just cannot stand that these people think this is all our life is going to be. Like there are more important things in life than your career. Personally, I don’t think that my career is going to be by far the most important thing in my life at all. There are so many more important things.

Like Jesus. I consider myself a Nondenominational Christian. So for myself, college is not the biggest picture in life by a long shot. These years will not be what wreaks havoc on my soul. I have faith that God is going to take care of me. If that means falling on my face, then that will be a lesson in life that I need to learn.

If you’re reading this, thank you for your time.